Greetings of Islam to all... ^^
One day I was passing by a huge garden. I stood for a while and look at the flowers from a corner. The next day I look at the flowers in the same garden from different angel. A few times I came and just observe the flowers from far. One day I thought let me be close to the fresh and and untouched flower over there. Yeah since the first day I came my eyes are always on that flower. I managed to go through all other flowers without touching any of them and stand beside this flower. Honestly it is beautiful and fresh. I started liking it. The story starts here..
It was Ramadhan 18. I just finished performing my prayer. After coming out form the mosque, I turn on my phone and received a message. I look at the message carefully as it was a long message.I read it again and again. I don't know what was my feeling at that time but as long as I remember I can't stay at a place. So after long thought, I braved myself and proposed her.
In simple word I said that "I love you" but it was very hard to say. I got positive answer and the journey continues.
She told me that I'm the first guy who ever said that and she accept it. She explained more that she does not know why she made this decision. She explained further that she is not believing all these and especially accepting me in her life. Again and again she said to me do you know that I still can't believe that I'm accepting someone in my life. I just anwer with a smile without saying much. My plan is to see the parents and tell them what is inside my heart but before that I braved myself and told the story to my mother.
"Mom! Is dad there?"
"No. Why? Is everything fine?"
"Yes.Nothing serious actually. Mom! May I share something with you?" I said it after taking a deep breath.
"For sure you can"
"Actually mom! I found a girl whom I believe has the criteria to be a wife" I just put a full stop without further explanation and I expect the answer from her "tell your father" and that what exactly i received from her.
"Tell your father. I can't say more about it". I did not say much and said "Ok! I'll tell him when I got the chance. Anyway mom!I have to go. " I ended my conversation with my mother and without wasting more time, I grabbed my phone and start writing a message to my father.
After a few minutes my phone which was on the table vibrated and I grabbed in a speed of light. On screen written new message and I close my eyes before pressing the "Read" button. After pressing I started to open my eyes and at the same time, my heart beat was about 200 per minute. He replied to me
"Wsalam. Send my regard to her as well but I think it is still early". I started to type and reply his message. I wrote to him that
"I know but trust me I will be able to differentiate my studies and love. I'll be able to control it insyaallah "
He even did not take long time as he is just waiting for my message. After a while I received a short text from him "Ok. I let everything to you". I just answer to him "Thank you".
I got a positive feedback from my father and also my mother and the journey continues. To make the long story short. On the day meeting her parents on her sisters wedding day. The first person I met on that day was her mother. She is a very beautiful and humble. She welcomed us with a sincere smile and started the conversation "Who is Abdul between the two of you".
I went there with one of my friend and what happened is he pointed at me and I pointed at him but at the end I admitted that I'm Abdul. She looked at me for a while and gave a smile. I was very nervous where I called her as sister and the sister as aunty. she laughed and said to us to have a sit. Before sitting on the chair I met her father. He looks a bit serious type. I did not say much except "Assalamualaikum uncle! I'm Abdul and he is my friend". He even did not say anything and just asked us to enjoy the meal.
Well it is useless to hide that my eyes actually were looking for that flower and I managed to catch her in my lens. She was looking beautiful in white baju kurung (Malay traditional clothes for female) with white scarf and black shoes.
The first meeting with the parents ended with a long message from me to her mother and also from her mother to me. She was saying that she is happy and grateful with what is happening now and hope that the relationship will be till the end.
I have never met her face to face and we never tried to talk also. I saw lots of couples doing it but I want to keep it and one day to make it really sweet and memorable and I never recieved such a text form her stating that I love you. Untill now I did not recieve it as she really wants to make it special and I never felt sad on that. Lots of things that I dreamed and keep dreaming.
Let me just share two things I did. Firstly I bought for her a gold ring as a sign on booked and secondly first in my life I bought flowers for a girl. So I 'll just tell you how I gave the flowers to her.I bought a piece of card and wrote something on it. I text her like this
"Salam! someone gave me flowers for you."
"Wsalm. what ? Who?" She replied nervously and worried.
"I don't know and I dont want to know him" I was the best actor that time.Heehe
"Ok" I know she is clueless
I asked my friend lets go and asked him to be serious. When we reached to her rented house she was waiting outside and I made my face and tried to look like I'm pissed off. Hehe very bad boy.
The only thing I can't forget up to now is how she was looking that night. She looked totally different that night and honestly I still can't forget it. She took the flowers and I quickly left the place. After a while she sent me a message "Abduuuuuuuuuuulllllllllllll". I just smiled and replied to her "For you only".
Enough here ok. <wink>
The story continues and years passed. Until one day.....
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After a few years without contacting her too much,I was surprised receiving form her a message stating that "Break" I thought she wants to rest or anything else but what she meant was to have no relation anymore. I was very sad and asked her to get engage. She refused it hardly and that was the only option I had. I thought making a concrete connection could be through engagement but I was wrong in that case. She has her own explanation on that and I have no other option except accepting what she wanted.
I tried to think about any further solution, unfortunately I couldn't find any of it. I surrender and with hard feelings I accepted her decision. The only sad moment in my life is when I received back the gold ring. I looked at it for long time and keep it as I thought one day I will be able to put it back in her finger. But I was and is a dream that I'm having right now. Lately, I lost the hopes and sold it back. I accepted the faith and I know He has the best for both of us.
I just wish that she will have someone who will really take care of her and will always be able to make her happy for the rest of her life and I closed the doors to my heart. I said that she was the one who really stole my heart. I believe in Allah and I know He has the best for both of us. I don't try to be an ungrateful slave but I don't wish for any. I just hope to spend the few days life being my family and help them in whatever I can. I'll get my brothers to build their family and the rest of my life, I'll just search for the love of Allah.
Sincerely,
Abdul Qahar
One day I was passing by a huge garden. I stood for a while and look at the flowers from a corner. The next day I look at the flowers in the same garden from different angel. A few times I came and just observe the flowers from far. One day I thought let me be close to the fresh and and untouched flower over there. Yeah since the first day I came my eyes are always on that flower. I managed to go through all other flowers without touching any of them and stand beside this flower. Honestly it is beautiful and fresh. I started liking it. The story starts here..
It was Ramadhan 18. I just finished performing my prayer. After coming out form the mosque, I turn on my phone and received a message. I look at the message carefully as it was a long message.I read it again and again. I don't know what was my feeling at that time but as long as I remember I can't stay at a place. So after long thought, I braved myself and proposed her.
In simple word I said that "I love you" but it was very hard to say. I got positive answer and the journey continues.
She told me that I'm the first guy who ever said that and she accept it. She explained more that she does not know why she made this decision. She explained further that she is not believing all these and especially accepting me in her life. Again and again she said to me do you know that I still can't believe that I'm accepting someone in my life. I just anwer with a smile without saying much. My plan is to see the parents and tell them what is inside my heart but before that I braved myself and told the story to my mother.
"Mom! Is dad there?"
"No. Why? Is everything fine?"
"Yes.Nothing serious actually. Mom! May I share something with you?" I said it after taking a deep breath.
"For sure you can"
"Actually mom! I found a girl whom I believe has the criteria to be a wife" I just put a full stop without further explanation and I expect the answer from her "tell your father" and that what exactly i received from her.
"Tell your father. I can't say more about it". I did not say much and said "Ok! I'll tell him when I got the chance. Anyway mom!I have to go. " I ended my conversation with my mother and without wasting more time, I grabbed my phone and start writing a message to my father.
"Salam! I hope you are doing well. I'm fine here and my studies are going good so far. Dad Humairah send you regard "
"Wsalam. Send my regard to her as well but I think it is still early". I started to type and reply his message. I wrote to him that
"I know but trust me I will be able to differentiate my studies and love. I'll be able to control it insyaallah "
He even did not take long time as he is just waiting for my message. After a while I received a short text from him "Ok. I let everything to you". I just answer to him "Thank you".
I got a positive feedback from my father and also my mother and the journey continues. To make the long story short. On the day meeting her parents on her sisters wedding day. The first person I met on that day was her mother. She is a very beautiful and humble. She welcomed us with a sincere smile and started the conversation "Who is Abdul between the two of you".
I went there with one of my friend and what happened is he pointed at me and I pointed at him but at the end I admitted that I'm Abdul. She looked at me for a while and gave a smile. I was very nervous where I called her as sister and the sister as aunty. she laughed and said to us to have a sit. Before sitting on the chair I met her father. He looks a bit serious type. I did not say much except "Assalamualaikum uncle! I'm Abdul and he is my friend". He even did not say anything and just asked us to enjoy the meal.
Well it is useless to hide that my eyes actually were looking for that flower and I managed to catch her in my lens. She was looking beautiful in white baju kurung (Malay traditional clothes for female) with white scarf and black shoes.
The first meeting with the parents ended with a long message from me to her mother and also from her mother to me. She was saying that she is happy and grateful with what is happening now and hope that the relationship will be till the end.
I have never met her face to face and we never tried to talk also. I saw lots of couples doing it but I want to keep it and one day to make it really sweet and memorable and I never recieved such a text form her stating that I love you. Untill now I did not recieve it as she really wants to make it special and I never felt sad on that. Lots of things that I dreamed and keep dreaming.
Let me just share two things I did. Firstly I bought for her a gold ring as a sign on booked and secondly first in my life I bought flowers for a girl. So I 'll just tell you how I gave the flowers to her.I bought a piece of card and wrote something on it. I text her like this
"Salam! someone gave me flowers for you."
"Wsalm. what ? Who?" She replied nervously and worried.
"I don't know and I dont want to know him" I was the best actor that time.Heehe
"Ok" I know she is clueless
I asked my friend lets go and asked him to be serious. When we reached to her rented house she was waiting outside and I made my face and tried to look like I'm pissed off. Hehe very bad boy.
The only thing I can't forget up to now is how she was looking that night. She looked totally different that night and honestly I still can't forget it. She took the flowers and I quickly left the place. After a while she sent me a message "Abduuuuuuuuuuulllllllllllll". I just smiled and replied to her "For you only".
Enough here ok. <wink>
The story continues and years passed. Until one day.....
*********************************************************************************
After a few years without contacting her too much,I was surprised receiving form her a message stating that "Break" I thought she wants to rest or anything else but what she meant was to have no relation anymore. I was very sad and asked her to get engage. She refused it hardly and that was the only option I had. I thought making a concrete connection could be through engagement but I was wrong in that case. She has her own explanation on that and I have no other option except accepting what she wanted.
I tried to think about any further solution, unfortunately I couldn't find any of it. I surrender and with hard feelings I accepted her decision. The only sad moment in my life is when I received back the gold ring. I looked at it for long time and keep it as I thought one day I will be able to put it back in her finger. But I was and is a dream that I'm having right now. Lately, I lost the hopes and sold it back. I accepted the faith and I know He has the best for both of us.
I just wish that she will have someone who will really take care of her and will always be able to make her happy for the rest of her life and I closed the doors to my heart. I said that she was the one who really stole my heart. I believe in Allah and I know He has the best for both of us. I don't try to be an ungrateful slave but I don't wish for any. I just hope to spend the few days life being my family and help them in whatever I can. I'll get my brothers to build their family and the rest of my life, I'll just search for the love of Allah.
You were the flower that I observe for days,
You were the flower that I missed for days,
You were the flower that I wish to pick,
You were the flower that dream about
and you were the flower that I lost forever.
Sincerely,
Abdul Qahar
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